Test Time

Distracted, yes!  The last week has been a blur of distractions from tomorrow’s upcoming tests, which has been great.  We have seen God at work in amazing ways and for that I am so thankful.  When the testing was originally set my thought was “that is so long from now, I will stress for weeks.”  What I have found out is that God set the test date just far enough out to accomplish great things in our lives.  If the testing had been the day after the second seizure I know for sure I would not have the peace going into it I have today. 

Jeremy is self employed, has been for years.  One of the great hardships of self-employment is never knowing for sure if and when a paycheck is coming.  Jeremy began applying for full time employment again knowing we needed something more reliable going forward with the unknown of Owen’s health.  He immediately received a call back and a second interview with the Budweiser Event Center.  The seventy plus applicants were from across the country and he was a part of the elite three asked back.  We were praying hard and praying for wisdom.  If Jeremy were offered a full time position he would have to put his own work with Big Creek productions on hold for a while.  If he were offered the job it would be a lot of technical and not a lot of creative.  As his supporter I had my own concerns for his happiness as well as for our stability.  Thursday night as we discussed the what-ifs of the job he told me his hope was to not get the full time job but that they would offer him freelance work instead.  Friday morning we received a phone call, just not the one we were expecting.  Out of what seemed like nowhere Orion Media contacted Jeremy and offered him freelance video work for their hunting and fishing shows on Verses, Outdoor Network and ESPN.  They had seen his work and wanted him.  He called the Budweiser Event Center to inform them he was taking another job.  Their response was, “great, we wanted to hire you but not for the position you applied for.  We would really like you to work part time on a freelance basis.”  Yes, God was most certainly at work in all of this!  We now feel confident moving forward that Jeremy has steady work on the horizon and it will be what he wants to do. 

We have also had the blessed distraction of Allie Lou’s first birthday.  We had a party for her on Sunday with many friends and family around to help celebrate.  When the party was over we sat back re-reading birthday cards and reminiscing.  I was reminded of Mary in scripture where it says she gathered all these things up in her heart and treasured them.  Oh how I understand that so much more as a mother than I ever did before.

Now the distractions are behind us and all that is left is the testing.  I have felt like I am walking around in a fog today.  Between mom group meeting, speech therapy and the daily chores I have been running like mad but really just feel like I am running behind.  I have made list after list today of things to accomplish and few of them are done….my mind is on tomorrow.

Today Owen’s balance is off and I have noticed a loss in appetite.  Are these for real or tricks my mind is playing on me out of fear?  I am doing my best to let faith answer the door when fear knocks.  I know that God answered our need for employment in a way that far exceeded my hopes and if He will be faithful with the small how much more can we trust Him with the great.